What is the hardest longanimous waiting in your life?
People who ill with Anxiety will felt many kinds of longanimous waiting in the life. For example, I illed with this ill when I was in 2005, when I was waiting for the coming bus, I felt upset. I didn't know why, so for reducing the upset mood, I had to move back and forth.
Now, I feel calm. And I can control my mood and feeling. Though I have to go to bank to transfer the money, for the supplier is waiting for delivering goods, or I'll be late on the airline, I still feel calm in my heart. Becasue we have to queue up to deal with the business of bank. However, sometimes, I'll be a VIP in some familiar banks. So I can do the business without queuing up.
Once, the hardest longanimous waiting in my life is to go abroad. At that time, I met many friends who all went abroad or just returned from overseas. I didn't understand why I had no chance to visit other countries. And the job was always not stable. This misfortune hurted me so much. My friends told me I could have a good development in a big company, for my working and conmmunicating ability and skilling are excelent. What’s my wanting, is that I didn’t meet a good platform. So I decide to advance my education. In China, if you have no good education background, you may meet many refusal. The good education background and English level become to the open sesame to find a job. Yes, most companies want to improve the overall quality, I can understhand their viewpoint. So if I want to go abroad, I have two main ways. One is to advance my knowledge, then choose a good multi-international company to get opportunity to go abroad. One is to immigrate directly. But the latter means I should pay for considerable money and depart from my parent and family. So though I have to wait a long long time, I still persist in choosing the former way. If I have no responsibility, just do things by my willing, I’m not a good person. But at that time, I really felt sad, to go abroad was become a strong willing and attraction on me. I think it was the hardest longanimous waiting in my life.
Now I have finished my first step. After two years eduaction, I think I may catch the dream. Another hardest longanimous waiting is to wait my boyfriend. If we choose a place to meet, I’ll feel upset when I don’t see him when I arrived. Thanks god, we all have cellphone in the modern society. But before 2000, I could do nothing except waiting for his appearance. During the life time, we all meet many waiting, but If I can separate around our concentration, we will feel better.